" I guess I am also pretty ambivalent towards life. I don't really hate it. For now it feels like  some sort of transition, though, I don't feel like I'm really existing as something right now. I'm on my way to doing this to doing that, and on my way to become that, nothing in my life is in terms of the now. It's all in terms of later. It makes me feel...rootless. Anchorless. Do you know what I mean?"