I think the amount of trust my parents have on me is so insanely huge that if I ever misuse them someday, I, Siti Hajjar Nasli, DESERVE to be disown. My parents are like my bestfriend sometimes. We will sit and talk till the wee hours of morning and they will just listen. Allah is fair. He made this awesome ears for me so that I can listen to others but He made an even awesome ears for my parents so that THEY would listen to me. It's hard to find friends who would willingly listen to you not that there isnt any, but my Pa's ears are special, really. He can be annoying but everytime he comes in to my room, ask me hows my day at work how I am feeling  hows the outing with the girls blablabla, those are probably the most sincere things a father would ask. Its no  longer that responsibility feeling that "Oh I have to listen to her because she is my daughter but more of a "I want to listen to her so that I can understand and put myself in her shoes".  Its a blessing I swear to be honest with them even if the least unimpressive thing to tell.KIDS, LISTEN TO KAK JAR. JUST BE HONEST. Like telling them how most of my friends smoke and I am left to inhale every single bit of nicotine and instead of judging me like "No you shouldnt hang out with them anymore they are a bad influence they will make you smoke" they went all soft on me and told me to just adapt to it. Most of my girls are drinkers. And my parents are fully aware of that. Most parents I know wouldnt allow their children to mix with such a potentially bad influence. I am contented that they are never judgemental about my group of friends I hanged out with. I could be a drinker if I wanted. But I think my parents raised me up well enough to know religiously if that is right or wrong, no offence to anyone.

So this morning I came home I told ma how we bunked in into some chapalang room  last night and the girls drank blablabla and she just listen. Then she left the room with no questions asked and in my heart I am like "Why didnt she ask if I drink, I am surrounded in a room of 8 girls who are all drunk and she never bother to ask me if I drank???" But I think the answers are pretty obvious. That amount of trust they had over me is crazy sometimes. I seriously deserve to be disown if I misuse this trust. It's like a freaking power brought down to you, and  its better than KICK-ASS HAHA. K side track skjp but really I have them to thank for my strong iman, man! Good job in raising me up chehh hahaha goodnight,  WHY DO I HAVE WORK TOMORROW!